Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Open Your Eyes

Open Your Eyes
Album : Thank You Allah
Munsyid : Maher Zain

Look around yourselves
Can't you see this wonder
Spread in front of you
The clouds floating by
The skies are clear and blue
Planets in the orbits
The moon and the sun
Such perfect harmony

Let's start questioning ourselves
Isn't this proof enough for us
Or are we so blind
To push it all aside..

We just have to
Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look quiet we'll see the signs
We can't keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
Guide us every single day..
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..

Look inside yourselves
Such perfect order
Hiding in yourselves
Running in your veins
What about anger love and pain
And all the things you're feeling
Can you touch them with your hand?
So are they really there?

Lets start questioning ourselves
Isn't this proof enough for us?
Or are we so blind
To push it all aside..?

We just have to
Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look quiet we'll see the signs
We can't keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
Guide us every single day..
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..

When a baby's born
So helpless and weak
And you're watching him growing..
So why deny
Whats in front of your eyes
The biggest miracle of life..

We just have to
Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look quiet we'll see the signs
We can't keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
Guide us every single day..
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..

Open your eyes and hearts and minds
If you just look bright to see the signs
We can't keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
Guide us every single day..
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..

You created everything
We belong to You
Ya Rabb we raise our hands
Forever we thank You..
الحمد الله

In the Presence of an Ulama'

On the 19th of December, weekend lepas lepas, our whole family (including family Paklong and Nenek) got the huge honor and once in a lifetime opportunity to listen to Sheikh Yusuf Al-Qardhawi give a ceramah at Masjid Shah Alam.

MashaAllah, it was indescribable. To listen to him live and be so close to him. Such an honor. Sheikh Yusuf Qardhawi talked in Arabic, although I only understood 48% of what he said, and although there was someone translating what he said, I still couldnt take my eyes off him while he talked. I was awed. It was unbelievable, to be in the presence of a famous world known ulama'.

I taped his ceramah. Nnt nak bagi kat Aliya, suruh die translate.. hehe.. boleh kan Aliya? :D Nnt boleh post kat YouTube. Hehe.

Here are some pictures:

Lepas maghrib terus start majlis.
Terkejut tengok sape pengerusi majlis -- belah kiri tu ustaz 'family kitorg'. Haha

This is the view from where I sat, betul2 depan screen. Yusuf Qardhawi was near the mimbar. Kalau zoom with the camera nampak la.

The man of the hour

Translator: Ustaz Ghani Ibrahim

3 beradik bergambar sebelum balik

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

My emotional roller coaster

Assalamualaikum WRT WBT

I first started to write a post this morning, but finally abandoned it. Im not saying I dont have anything to write. In fact, tons of things have happened, but.. well, usually Im just too tired to think about what to write, how to write it and how to phrase things.

A bunch of emotions have gone thru me these past few days. Last weekend, I joined another JJB camp -- which for me was the most exhausting out of the handful of 29 hour camps we've ever done. It was exhausting mentally and emotionally. I have to admit, this was the most syahdu camp Ive ever been to yet. Although at all JJB camps, I will cry, but this specific one, it made me cry the ugly cry (as Oprah phrases it). Teresak-esak.

Sedih giler camp ni. Im not sure I am at liberty to explain why, but to resolve the confusion, I should mention the fact that among the participants of the camp were girls from a certain rumah bimbingan anak-anak perempuan. Enough said. For further explanation, maybe you should ask me in person. Ill not cerita-cerita here for everyone to read.

This was the camp that I cried the most -- which explains the emotional exhaustion. It took me two days to get rid of the headache I received as a souvenir from the camp. Hari ni baru ok sikit. But Im still vulnerable. Over sensitive as you might phrase it.
Team JJB with AJK Belia 4B Felda Taib Andak
(yang perempuan semua muka baru lepas nangis, he he)

But as always, it was a very memorable experience. Seronok tu mmg la seronok, tp yang penting niat kite join dlm gerak kerja dakwah ni. Kene selalu betulkan balik niat.

Other than that emotion, right now there's this uncomfortable feeling. Yang ni lagi la takleh nak cite kat sini. Only a handful of ppl know about this issue. But InsyaAllah its no longer going to be an issue after this. Hopefully. Ameenn.

Next. I just found out that a friend is getting married next year. As much as I am happy for this friend of mine, I am sad to say that Im a little disappointed and broken-hearted. Enough said.

Moving on, Im feeling a little down about something related to work -- as in my search for what people call 'real' work. For those who think I havent been putting an effort in it, you're dead wrong. Its not that I "tanak cari kerja tetap", its "I keep getting rejections". I have a list if you want to see it. And Im at the point of giving up and accepting Aliya's offer. Everytime I listen to Maher Zain's song titled InsyaAllah, I cry. Especially today when I hear ppl implying that Im not doing anything, seolah-olah aku mmg taknak keje. Jatuh motivasi aku. Sedih tau tak.

I told you Im in a vulnerable emotional state. Tengah low self esteem.

Ugh. I hate it when this happens.

But sometimes we need to suffer, for us to understand the meaning of happiness.
Sometimes we need to feel disappointment, for us to understand the meaning of success. Sometimes we need to cry, to understand the meaning of being grateful for what we have been given, and sometimes we need to get hurt, to understand who we really are.

Friday, December 11, 2009

Just a Short

This is a short post.

Currently at KLIA, tunggu Ayah punye flight arrive. Flight Ayah delay. Patut sampai kul 6, delay sampai kul 8.30. Ayah balik (Yay!!)

Lepas ni terus balik kelantan.

See ya guys in Kelantan!

Wednesday, December 09, 2009


by: Maher Zain

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That your so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You cant see which way to go
Dont despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah youll find your way

Everytime you can make one more mistake
You feel you cant repent
And that its way too late
Yourre so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Dont despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah youll find your way
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah youll find your way

Turn to Allah
Hes never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
OOO Ya Allah
Guide my steps dont let me go astray
Youre the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way x2
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah well find the way

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Aliya's Convo

Here's the reason Mak and Ayah went to Australia.

After 7 years of loooooong, hard, and tough studying, Aliya finally graduated! Yehaaaaaaaaa...!!

Congratulations dearest sister :D *hugs*

Im so proud of you. Seronok giler tengok ur convo pics. It doesnt matter no mortar board, you guys look super hip. Elegant giler! Hehhehe.

And Aliya, I love the tudung! Hehhe.

Congrats Dr. Aliya Azlan. Perghh.. Dr.

I showed nenek and WanCu these pictures and the one on Ahmad's and Aliya's blog. They were so excited. Nenek even asked to have a copy of Aliya's convo pic.

The only heart wrenching moment for me was when nenek said..

"The 2nd Dr. Azlan in the family. Patutnye awk (while poking me in the arm) Dr. Azlan the 3rd!"

Ouch that hurt.

Home Alone

Ok, moving on..

Last Thursday, Mak, Ayah and Ahmad went off to Australia. So tinggal la kitorg bertigaa.. Well ok, since Aimi mmg duduk KL, its more of just me and Aida.

So we sent off Mak, Ayah and Ahmad at KLIA. Ahmad yang paling excited I think. Hehe.
Him with his kebab! *roll-eyes* Hahha..

Bertolak from kampung at 7 a.m., arrived at around 8. Since they oredi checked-in thru the web, we didnt have to go too early. Kalau tak, nenek suruh bertolak at 5 a.m. Ugh.

They went into the international terminal at around.. 8 something, coz Ayah wanted to buy a digital camera for Aliya at the terminal. Tak tahu la dpt ke tak.

After they went in, me and Aida terus pegi KL. Since we promised to meet Aimi for lunch that day, we terus went to MidValley. We were starving! Haha. But along the way, jam giler. I think we were stuck for about 2 hours baru sampai MidValley. Ugh. Apparently there were terrible flash floods. But still, it was tiring. Lalu jalan mane pun jam teruk jugak, so I decided to take the shortest route.

We finally arrived, and finally ate. I bet you can guess where we ate ey? :P We bungkus a meal for Aimi and terus went to her college to wait for her lunch break.

After Aimi ate her lunch in the car, Aida and I went back to MidValley to watch the ultimate hype story for the 2nd time *wink *wink *nudge *nudge -- if you know what I mean :P Hahha.

This time, I gave it an 8 star out of 10. The details are just awesome. I have to admit that there are parts which are too cheesy, and weird. But overall, it was awesome.

AGAIN.. you wont understand what I mean unless you read the book. GO READ la to really appreciate it.

On the way back to Melaka, it rained again.. which ofkoz lead to another few hours stuck in the jam. Ugh. I forgot how stressful it was living in KL and going thru that day after day.

Aida and I stayed in Melaka with nenek. Teman nenek la sbnrnye. Kalau ikut hati betul-betul, we'd both rather go back to JB. But kesian nenek. Tak kesahlah takde Internet for a week, and takleh nak buat keje for a week (coz I need internet to update and create stuff). Tak kesah la we spent most of our days either in front of the TV or sleeping our eyes off. Haha.

But seriously, I was starting to get restless. I dont do well with too much time. And being without Internet.. I felt I was being cut off from the world! Hahha.. Hey, Im not exaggerating ok.

And it doesnt help that nenek kept giving us things to eat. Haha. Ade je benda die masak and suruh kitorg makan. WanCu too. Hahhaha.. duduk sebulan ngan nenek, mau naik more than 5kg. Now.. imagine me staying with nenek for 6 years. And come on.. how can you say no to ur grandma? Kene jaga hati orang tua. THAT's what happened to me :P Hehehhehehhehehhehe..

On Sunday, Nenek, WanCu, Me, Aida and Cuncun (org gaji nenek) went to Bandar Melaka. Saje je nak jenjalan. Sepatutnya, WanCik pun ikut sekali, but her leg was giving her problems, she couldnt walk that much.

We went on the Melaka Water Cruise. Saje je. It was kinda alrite. Hehe.. Lalu the Melaka River.. yada yada yada.. had some fun.

Afterwards, we all pegi tido at a Hotel at Ayer Keroh. The best thing about that resort was the swimming pool. Hahha.. nasib baik ade.

Ive been to lots of hotels. Selalu coz Ayah ade keje and we all ikut. How I judge the standard of a hotel or a resort is from the food. And it wasnt that good. 3 out of 10. But the pool was great. Haha :P

Today, me and Aida finally came back home to JB. Since we'll only be staying a day and a half, kitorg beli lauk sikit je. Awal-awal pagi khamis dah kene balik kg balik to fetch nenek and terus pegi KL pulak. Friday pagi kene pegi KLIA to fetch Ayah, then terus balik Kelantan.

Just listing out the schedule is making me exhausted. Kelantan. I bet no 'work-time' either. I hope at least we'll go somewhere. But since its musim tengkujuh right now, I highly doubt it.

Anyway, I havent given Mak the list of things I'd like from Australia yet :P Hehehe. But its good to know that I can strike out one thing. Guess what I found at Jusco.. :D

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...... Hehehhehehehehehhehehe.. how great is that?! AWESOME!!

AidulAdha 2009

Assalamualaikum WRT WBT

Hi y'all. Yeah yeah, I know. I havent been very attentive to my blog these past couple of weeks. Sorry. I just came back from Melaka today, where there is absolutely no internet connection. Which explains my absence in the world wide web. Ha ha.

Let see.. what was the last thing I reported about? Oh yeah.. JJB eh. Okey. I guess I didnt actually write about it. Old news now huh? No worries. I have videos to remember the details of the camp.

But this post isnt going to be about that. The enthusiasm to write about that has died out. And I dont think you'll be seeing one anytime soon. Haha.

Ok, back to the present.

AidilAdha. This was the first time in ages we didnt go back to Kelantan for AidilAdha. We've been going back since I dont remember when. And since raya haji at Kelantan is much more meriah, this year around, we debated on what to do at KL. I have to admit, I forgot how other states celebrate AidilAdha. Haha. But it was nice seeing Paklong and the family. I havent seen them in ages. Especially Arifah.

Raya was spent at nenek's house, playing with my cousins, playing Uno, Speed and watching TV. Later in the day, I suggested we all go jalan-jalan. In the end, we decided to go to Pantai Remis, which is at the border of Selangor and Perak.

Nothing.. and I mean n.o.t.h.i.n.g beats the beaches at Pantai Timur. This ofkoz excludes oversea beaches :P. So the view wasnt really that great. I guess what made it fun was the company.

This is basically what we did. See below:

Our family and Paklong's family (minus a few members, and Paklong -- he took the picture)
Us looking for Remis. Nak tahu remis tu ape, go google it :P

The girls getting together on a log.
See any resembelance? :P Hehe

Afterwards, I suggested to do this:


Get set..



The cousins having a blast. Kwang kwang kwang..

Happy Eidul Adha everyone *wink*