Its Pathetic

This is so pathetic.

I cry when I find myself alone. Yet Im not in the mood to socialise.

I have tons of work to do. Yet I cant find the mood or the enthusiasm to even start any of them.

I listen to very sad music. Yet I find myself angry that I cry every single time.

I hate crying myself to sleep. But crying is so exhausting.

I just want to be alone. Yet being alone is so depressing.

I dont feel like being cheerful. Yet Im tired of feeling down all the time.

I want to talk to someone. But all the people I want to talk to are so far away.

Each day goes by so fast and I find myself doing absolutely nothing. Its so pathetic.

I need to get out of this depressing feeling. I need to move to a different emotion.

My head hurts all the time now. I cant think. I dont know what to do.

Help me please. I cant stop crying.